this is soooo fooking weird.

Shocking day.

I draw this skull last April:



Then about 15 minutes ago, when I was reading Sherina's Blog, I found this picture:



SHOCKING!!! How can Lindsay Lohan wear a shirt with my skull on it?
Then I have just realized. I ever made a deal with nobody from Bandung. He wants me to draw something gothic for his clothing industry or something. He will pay for what I made. So I made this funny skull. But then he said he doesn't have any money yet to pay what I have made. UNTIL NOW. It's okay for me tho. But but but but but... How can Lindsay wear that shirt?

I don't know what to do except laughing.

i hate avril lavigne. sorry for the fans.

I really want to wrote these since I was 13. I hate Avril Lavigne with a reason. I ever read this interview from an Indonesian magazine. But then I got the original one from Chart Attack. Here what she said about Britney Spears:

"I mean, the way she dresses — would you walk around the street in a fuckin' bra?" she asks rhetorically. "I'm not trying to dis anyone, but with me, the clothes I wear onstage are the clothes I would wear to school or go shopping. I'm not gonna go up onstage and dress different. Britney Spears goes up onstage and dresses like a showgirl. She's not being herself up there because she's dancing like a ho. Is she ho? She says she's a virgin. Y'know, it's just not clicking. She's doing one thing and saying another thing, y'know? It's definitely not what I'm going to do."

1st. People shouldn't be that care of what other people wear. What we should care is what we said about others. So what if Britney wear bra in supermarket? Did that makes you hurt or die? Did she makes you lost your eye or something? NO. So why should Avril bother with it? It's not her business. She should shut her mouth up.

2nd.If Britney really annoying with what she wear, well Avril is more than that. She hurt other people feelings! What if Britney read her interview? It can break her heart. Maybe Britney really is a ho. But once again: SO WHAT? Avril don't have the right to said that tho. It's not Avril business if Britney is a ho or not.

3rd. And look at this picture. If she said Britney is a ho by showing bra on public places and dresses like a showgirl, well she's another Britney Spears then.






Go to hell Avril. What you hate from other people is what you really are right now.

I love your song. I love your voice. I love your style. I love what you wear. But I hate what you said and how you behave. Too bad, Slut.

he's so good to me.

kudaku.


I wanna lock you up in my closet
When no one's around
I wanna put your hand in my pocket
Because you're allowed
I wanna drive you into the corner
And kiss you without a sound
I wanna stay this way forever
I'll say it loud

You make me so hot
Make me wanna drop
You're so ridiculous
I can barely stop
I can hardly breathe
You make me wanna scream
You're so fabulous
You're so good to me, baby

You're soooo good :*

This song really describe my boyfriend.

hide drug!

Jika ada pecandu atau pengedar narkoba yang takut ditangkap, santai saja, pemerintah menyuruh kita untuk menyembunyikannya saja kok.

Foto didapat dari teman saya ini.

mbak rully.

Mbak Rully and my lazy cats.

She 100% loves to cook and we are 10.000% love what she cooked.
She loves our cats and my cats love her more than they love me!
She loves to buy us good food and we love to buy her good things.
She loves to hear my jokes and I love to hear her story.
She loves us (I think) and that's because she knows we love her.

Her name is Mbak Rully. Even she's 50 years old, I call her "Mbak", which it means she's younger than her age. She work at my house as a mother. Haha. She cook, cleans, buys grocery, and taking care our cats with lot's of love. She do most everything what my family need to.

When Idul Fitri came, she went back to her village. We are too damn affraid if she never came back to our house again.

But tada! She came back! Bought us lot's of good food and a big smile. We're all very pleased to see her back. Even my cats look very happy that time when we saw her standing infront of our house.

Well, usualy people call her maid, but I prefer to call her my family.
I love her very much and I want people to know that, including her.

don't pity.

Don't pity on me because of my hair.

The hard thing that anyone ever had in this world is facing reality that doesn't work as we want to. Being stupid surrounded by the smart people, being ugly surrounded by the beauty, being a loser, being disabled, being the victim of a broken home, or maybe having a big problem that no one else ever had before. It is hard but we can solve it. We are human beings. We have the power to do that.

But the hardest thing that anyone can have in this world is when the people around us giving the "pity face" and telling us that they are sorry about our problem.

Well people, there's no any other problem in this world that human couldn't face, except facing the people who are pity to us.

People with problems can face it, can solve it, and they doesn't need you to be sorry. Just treat them like any other people.

It's just a problem anyway, you don't need to pity them.

are you smart in one of my definition?

Reading the audience.

Smart is something that you can define in many definition. This is because smart is measured by many activities in human life. Here I want to tell you what is smart in public speaking.

Imagine all the people in the world are in one place. Let's separate the (sorry) stupid people, because here we're talking about the smart one. So now we got the smart poeple in public speaking left. Here are 3 types of smart people in my definition:

1st. People who got smart thoughts, but cannot deliver it well. They got brilliant ideas but it is only hanging around inside their head and cannot change the world. This is maybe because they are too shy or got no talent in conversation.

2nd. People who got smart thoughts, can deliver it well in a charming way, but they cannot read the situation infront of them. We can find these people in college. Their thoughts are amazing and how they deliver their thoughts are fantastic. They use good language in a good sentense. The thing is, they cannot read how interest the audiances are about their thoughts. The audiances are not always interested in our thoughts. Maybe they are tired, or got many things to do, or maybe they only need something to get their spirit back. But these smart people in my 2nd definition doesn't understand about it. They got brilliant ideas, good in delivering it, but doesn't realize that the audiances cannot give attention to them. Sometimes these people are too enjoy with them self in delivering their thought. They spend too much time doing "bla bla" without knowing how's the audiances. It means nothing. These smart people are just the same talking to a kitten.

3rd. This is the last one: people who got smart thoughts, can deliver it well in a charming way, AND they can read the situation infront of them. They can read how interested the audiance are, figure what are the important things they should deliver without wasting any time, and understand how to make the audiance listen to thier thoughts. Maybe they got 5 arguments which they might deliver, but because they know that the audiances are not interested, they only use their 2 important arguments so the audiances can get what is the point without wasting of time.

Unfortunately, only a few of smart people in this definiton.

one year blogging.

Happy first birthday blog!

It's been a year I've write my posts in this blog. It's been a lot of stories I have tell.
I'm satisfied writting it here. I hope people felt the same way in reading it. :)

Happy birthday my blog. Muah :*

nice people can kill.

Inna lillaahi wa innaa ilaihi raaji’uun.

You know what? Being nice is nothing. Being smart is everything.

If you're nice and willing to help anyone, but you're stupid, you'll kill them.
Giving zakat to hundreds of people without any security is a good idea to kill 21 of them.

I understand why God loves smart people than any other kind of people in this life.

adat berpuasa di negara egois.

Kenapa ya banyak orang di negara ini (Indonesia), yang ingin dihargai kalau sedang berpuasa? Padahal menurut saya berpuasa itu urusan mereka dengan diri mereka sendiri dan Allah SWT. Namun kenapa tidak sedikit orang di negara ini yang merasa harus lebih dimenangkan hanya karena mereka sedang berpuasa dan parahnya justru merugikan orang lain.

Seperti contohnya restoran atau warung makan. Pada saat Bulan Ramadhan tiba, banyak restoran atau warung makan yang tadinya buka dari pagi hingga malam menjadi buka hanya saat malam saja. Kenapa begitu? Bahkan saya pernah menonton berita di Buser SCTV tahun lalu, para polisi di Tasikmalaya menggerebek warung-warung kecil di pinggir jalan yang masih tetap buka pada saat siang di Bulan Ramadhan. Kenapa harus digerebek? Apa salah mereka? Apakah negara ini negara Islam yang 100% penduduknya adalah muslim? Apakah di negara ini 100% penduduknya semua sejahtera sehingga mereka semua wajib berpuasa? Apakah di negara ini 100% penduduknya orang yang sehat sehingga mereka mampu berpuasa?

Saya mencoba menjawabnya.
Negara Indonesia bukan negara Islam, melainkan negara Pancasila. Terbukti dalam UUD, negara kita meyakini 5 agama lain selain Islam.
Di negara ini, tidak 100% penduduknya sejahtera dan sehat. Sebagian dari mereka tidak wajib berpuasa. Setahu saya, orang yang wajib berpuasa adalah orang yang mampu secara ekonomi maupun jasmani. Sehingga tidak ada salahnya apabila pada saat Bulan Ramadhan, ada seorang pendeta ngemil di sore hari; seorang kuli bangunan minum di pinggir jalan; dan seorang nenek makan di restoran pada siang hari. Yang menjadi semua itu salah apabila ada seorang muslim yang mampu dan sehat melarang kegiatan yang menjadi hak orang lain. Itu salah besar. Allah mengajarkan kita berpuasa untuk menahan napsu, bukan untuk memberikan kita hak melarang orang lain makan di depan orang berpuasa. Lagipula, seharusnya kita menahan rasa ingin makan atau minum dari diri sendiri, bukan meminta orang lain untuk menghormati kita yang sedang berpuasa. Apabila sudah niat berpuasa, seharusnya tidak mengharapkan orang lain untuk tidak makan atau minum di depan kita.

Tidak hanya itu. Pada saat Bulan Ramadhan, banyak kegiatan yang dikurangi. Misalnya sekolah, kuliah, bekerja, dsb. Astaga! Ini bukan Bulan Malas! Ini Bulan Ramadhan! Tidak seharusnya di bulan yang baik ini justru kita bermalas-malasan hanya karena sedang berpuasa. Seharusnya bulan ini dijalankan senormal mungkin seperti bulan-bulan yang lain. Yang membedakan hanyalah: kita berpuasa. Tapi tetap saja, kita terlalu manja dan minta dihargai pada saat menjalankan ibadah, yang sebenarnya urusan kita sendiri dengan Allah SWT.

Yah... Inilah negara bodoh, egois, dan malas. Enjoy the tiresome, people!

BFF.

She was there right away,
when I needed her help that day
She hugged me even she's far away
Hold me like she's trying to say: you'll be okay

So I cried so hard when we ended our call
Not because I started to fall,
or because I'm alone at all
But it's just because of her call

Oh God, Am I the foolish ever?
She's a gift, but I knew it later
Now my life is never better
Cuz I've realized: I got her!


Dedicated for my best-friend-forever on that day:
Nina, Friday 10th November 2006

bangsa indonesia.

Kalo aku jadi Burung Garuda pasti aku malu: gagah tapi pemalas.

Kalo aku jadi Merah-Putih pasti aku malu: berani dan suci tapi banyak menindas.

Kalo aku jadi Bangsa Indonesia pasti aku malu: menggunakan 2 lambang yang hebat untuk sesuatu yang murah.

Selamat Hari Ulang Tahun Kemerdekaan Republik Indonesia ke-63.

Again and again, thanks to my boifriend, Ari. He asked me to write about this. I kinda copied his idea :P

batman: the dark knight

Joker's movie.

I never watch such a crazy movie like this. I cannot think of anything else except concentrating in watching it. Too much interesting plot I cannot ignore. I even can forget that I got too many problems! This is what I call a brillian movie. A movie that makes us forget: we are only watching a movie. How can these film makers get the idea? They are too damn genius!

The thing is... I think this is not a movie about Batman. This is a movie about Joker. Joker is the superstar. Like what my brother have said, "almost every plot of Joker cannot be missed". Spectacular act from Heath Ledger. I believe that Christopher Nolan plan to put Joker in his next Batman movie after The Dark Night, and I believe he wants Heath Ledger to be the Joker again. Unfortunately, Heath's gone now for a drug overdose. :(

I can't imagine who can replace Heath Ledger for his Joker act. I think no one can.

no jilbab please.

Saya dongkol dengan quote "Berjilbab tapi tetap menarik"

Yang saya tahu, Allah memerintah kita untuk berjilbab agar tidak menarik.
Yang saya tahu, seharusnya wanita yang berjilbab itu memakai jilbab dengan warna-warna yang tidak menarik, seperti hitam, coklat, atau abu-abu.
Yang saya tahu, seharusnya wanita menggunakan jilbab yang longgar sehingga menutupi lekukan tubuhnya.
Yang saya tahu, jilbab itu tidak harus menutupi rambutnya, tapi HARUS menutupi bagian-bagian yang dianggap akan membuat terangsang.
Yang saya tahu, apapun yang dikenakan wanita untuk menutupi auratnya, apabila gerak-geriknya menarik perhatian, tetap saja wanita sia-sia menutupi auratnya.

Fakta yang terjadi adalah:
1. Wanita (khususnya di Indonesia), justru menghiasi jilbabnya dengan berbagai pernik-pernik mengerikan seperti berlian, manik-manik, atau bordiran yang heboh.
2. Jilbab yang seharusnya berwarna gelap dan tidak menarik, justru kadang diganti dengan warna-warna yang mencolok seperti merah, kuning, oranye, dan pink.
3. Semua orang juga pasti pernah jengkel karena banyak wanita berjilbab justru memakai pakaian yang ketat.
4. Sudah susah-susah menutupi rambut indahnya yang minim membuat terangsang malah kadang bagian-bagian tertentu terlihat, seperti leher, kaki, dan lengan tangan yang justru lebih membuat terangsang.
5. Sudah memakai jilbab yang baik dan benar, namun gerak-geriknya keterlaluan centil. Lari sana, lari sini, dipoto bergaya mecucu, teriak sana teriak sini, jalan megol-megol, dan kadang malah memperlihatkan kemesraan yang berlebihan dengan pasangannya di depan umum.

Buat apa menutupi rambut indahmu apabila semua itu sia-sia? Saya pikir, lebih baik saya memakai kaos oblong, celana pendek, sendal jepit, dan bergerak-gerik anggun; daripada memakai jilbab ketat berwarna merah, dengan manik-manik berlian di kepala, dan bergerak centil dimana-mana. Kalo belum siap untuk tidak tampil menarik, itu berarti belum siap memakai jilbab.

Thanks to my boifriend, Ari. Because of him I got this idea to write my thoughts.

no televison?

Saya menemukan iklan ini di Bulletin Board Friendster saya:

Dalam rangka menyukseskan gerakan HARI TANPA TV 2008 yang diprakarsai oleh Yayasan Pengembangan Media Anak dan didukung oleh berbagai institusi yang bersedia bergabung, maka akan diselenggarakan:

"FUN DAY WITHOUT TV 2008"
Tanggal : 20 Juli 2008
Waktu : Pk 09.00 - selesai WIB
Lokasi : Taman Monas

Bentuk kegiatan : mengundang dan bekerja sama dengan beberapa sekolah dan perguruan tinggi di Jabodetabek untuk mengadakan lomba, bazaar kecil, membuka booth tanya jawab seputar anak dan TV bagi orangtua dan anak-anak.
Mengapa perlu ada Hari Tanpa TV (HTT)? Ada 2 makna: pertama, ingin membiasakan bahwa tanpa TV pun hidup akan tetap nyaman, Jadi, kita mencoba mengurangi ketergantungan kita, terutama anak-anak, pada TV. Kedua, sebagai ungkapan keprihatinan kita terhadap isi tayangan TV yang tidak aman dan tidak sehat untuk anak.

Yang saya herankan, ada apa sih dengan TV? Kenapa merasa harus bisa hidup tanpa TV? Bukannya TV juga banyak manfaatnya? Kalo toh TV menjadi tidak bermanfaat dan lebih banyak merugikannya, itu salah per individu, bukan TV.

Mengenai tayangan TV yang tidak aman dan sehat untuk anak, maka dari itu ada jam malam kan? Kenapa harus ketakutan? Jam malam berarti anak sudah tidur kan? Kalo anak belum tidur, salah orang tuanya sendiri. Kenapa kita yang tidak punya anak harus repot-repot tidak bisa menonton tv? Bukan egois, but take your own business please. Don't share it with us.

my birthday.

I don't do wishes :D

I'm 20. Do I have to be happy? I should. Even I hate to be old, but I thank to God for this 20 point of thanks giving:

1st. I'm 20 but I look like 17 :D

2nd. I'm healty so does everybody who I love.

3th. I still got my crazy but lovable family.

4th. I never lose my old friends. They still remember my birthday. So in my birthday, I can meet my old friends who I rarely talk with, eventho by sms or phone.

5th. I have more and more bestfriends everyday every year.

6th. I do so many things that I even can't believe I already done it.

7th. I met and know many people who can make my life more colorful.

8th. My cats are getting fatter and ugglier and dumber and lovable :)

9th. I earn my own money from my hard work.

10th. I got the best chef and the best catlover ever at my house (Her name is Mbak Rully)

11th. I found so many good music.

12th. I face alot of problems that made me more mature and... ehem... smart? Heheh.

13th. I gain alot of knowledge from what I learn in class and in where ever I stand.

14th. I'm skinnier and prettier. My mom said so. Haha.

15th. More age more surprises!

16th. Everyday I can eat and drink delicious things.

17th. I can sleep tight everynite without worry.

18th. Some of my dream came true :D

19th. I'm not just "still fine like always" but from years to years my life is getting better.

20th. I'm happy, and this is the important thing.

With those 20 things that I have right now, I think I don't need to make any wishes anymore. All I have to do is to feel thank for it. Thanks everybody and thanks God. I love you all more than I love myself :)

Kiss <3

realistic relationship.

Cit cuitttt!

I like someone right now, and so does he. Eventho I just met and know him 3 weeks ago, it feels like I know about him for years. We like to be together every single day from day to night. Yea we're a jerk. But it makes us know each other without sacrificing too much time for it.

Well yes, our days are fun. Too much fun. Movies, beach, working, breakfast, lunch, dinner, laughing, karaoke, double date, triple date, riding andong, holding hands, etc. He's the best guy I ever be with. Seriously.

But there's something I have to remember is, someday these will end just like that. I don't know is it him who like somebody else or me, but feelings will end. Then we meet somebody else, getting along with that somebody else, get bored, then meet somebody else again, etc. Don't think that you are always be together or forever have the same feeling with your lover now. Because it's just 40% possible. The 60% is impossible. However, there's a chance we will meet again and realizing that even we are bored, we still need each other to be with.

All I need to say is, I'm happy to be with him right now, but still I gotta be ready that someday this feelings will end. I know this is weird but I just want to think realistic so that I can manage my heart.

i got fired.

Ok, I feel sad.

I made a mistake. I didn't read the message on my cellphone. So I did something wrong and ruining everything on my work. Then I got fired.

This is what I call destiny. Just because my celly isn't working properly, I can't read the message, then I got fired. Is this a God's plan? I think so. But I believe, God's plan always the best, even it looks bad.

drawing day 2008.

Rabbit on Bushes.

I am very busy but still I have to post this, because it's DRAWING DAY 2008, my friend!

PS: Dedicated for all the artists around the world.

fpi, insiden monas, dan keyakinan.

Memakai atribut ke-Islam-an dan
membawa bendera Indonesia: mempermalukan Islam dan Indonesia.
Sebenarnya saya sedang sibuk terpontang-panting disini, tapi khusus untuk mengungkapkan pendapat yang sejak kemarin terpendam, saya tulis ini dengan tergesa-gesa.

Terkait dengan Insiden Monas, yaitu aksi damai AKKBB (Aliansi Kebangsaan untuk Kebebasan Beragama dan Berkeyakinan) yang dinodai oleh aksi kekerasan FPI (Front Pembela Islam), ada 3 kunci pokok yang ingin saya sampaikan disini.

1. Saya Islam, tetapi saya tidak merasa agama saya dibela, melainkan dipermalukan. Sorry, agama saya tidak seperti itu. Islam tidak seperti itu. Maka dari itu hingga detik ini saya menganut Islam. Kalimat ini adalah kalimat yang selalu ingin saya sampaikan semenjak adanya aksi-aksi anarkis FPI di berita jauh sebelum Insiden Monas. Hey FPI, agama bukan mainan.

2. Kekerasan yang disengaja itu tidak layak dimaafkan. Apapun alasannya. Bahkan seorang wanita yang sering disiksa oleh suaminya, namun membunuh suaminya saat tidak sedang menyiksanya saja harus diadili, apalagi sekelompok lelaki yang mengajar sekelompok orang (laki-laki, perempuan, hingga anak-anak) yang tidak sedang menyerang mereka! Apakah perlu dimaafkan dan tidak diadili? Kalo ya, berarti jangan sebut negara ini negara hukum. Mempermalukan hukum saja.

3. Keyakinan adalah suatu pemikiran dan perasaan. Dari manakah pemikiran dan perasaan itu datang? Dari diri masing-masing individu. Seharusnya menjadi sesuatu yang tabu untuk membahas mengenai perasaan yang diyakini seseorang. Apalagi memaksakan keyakinan. Itu bukan hak saya, anda, atau mereka. Bukan hak satu orangpun di dunia ini untuk memaksakan keyakinannya pada orang lain.

Saya sedang menunggu dan tidak sabar untuk menikmati berita-berita di televisi maupun media cetak mengenai pembubaran dan penahanan anggota FPI. Serve the popcorn, please!

Memakai Bahasa Indonesia karena beberapa faktor.

annoying comment.

It was their fine neighbourhood.

I'm sad. I felt disappointed, unfair, and angry. Totally angry.

Did you know that the Lapindo victims haven't get their rights of their property and their life after these 2 years accident? Yes until NOW, they live like animals: no house, no enough facilities, no dream. So do you think it is annoying if the victims are angry asking for their life back? ABSOLUTELY NOT. So why this guy name Yogie wrote a comment in this blog, saying that the victims shouldn't be a beggar by begging too much and better go transmigrate to Irian Jaya. GOSH!!! It doesn't make any sense! This is the most cruel, foolish, and insensitive comment I ever read. I'm so angry when I read it. His comment tells me that he even doesn't think when he wrote it. What if the victims read it? It will break their heart. They need support not just useless argument.

Well, these are for him. Maybe these will help him to think:

1st. Transmigration NEED money. Transmigration to Irian Jaya NEED A LOT of money. But who's money? The victims already lost their money and properties. So where in the heck did you get that idea?

2nd. They are asking for their life that they have before the accident. That is their RIGHTS. Can you imagine how it feels like if you own a house, then somebody stole it, but no one can help you to get it back? Even no one cares about it! Can you imagine how it feels like? It feels UNFAIR. So don't blame the victims by telling them to stop fighting for their rights!

3rd. Aburizal Bakrie, who is responsible for the accident, is the #1 most rich man in South East Asia. It is so unfair if he lives like in paradise, while his victims live like in hell. Unfair. So do you still think, it is wrong if the victim kept begging their rights? Don't judge the victim are beggar, because they aren't. They did not beg for money, they beg for their stolen life.

4th. Please use your brain before you wrote something. What you wrote is what people think about you. And I think you are such a smart-ass, I mean, SOK TAU.

For Lapindo victims:
Please ignore such an insensitive people like him.

are we really awake?

too weak to wake-up.

I felt disappointed by the news on every media in this country.

Too much information about the accident that killed an actor, Sophan Sophian, but less information about our two national heroes, Ali Sadikin and S.K Trimurti, who just passed away 2 days ago. Sophan Sophian is a good man (like what I heard on tv), but compared with what did Ali Sadikin and S.K Trimurti have done, Sophan Sophian is nothing. So why these media keep showing how sorry they are to lose an actor (who once ever be a member in DPR) and forgeting about the real national heroes?

Is this what we call "Kebangkitan Bangsa"? Are we really awake? Or we are too weak for that?

I think from now on, I should call this country Ironic.

Well welcome to Ironic, people. Please enjoy the tiresome.

when we met.

Rain falls, little tiger, and the catlover boy :)



I remember when we met
The weather was so wet
And you were carrying a cat
With a black spot on his head

You were so cute with that sweather
Holding the little "tiger"
Then I knew you are a catlover
That can be mine forever


I wrote this when I was in Junior High School (SLTP N 5 Yogyakarta, 2002). My English teacher, Bu Rini, gave this homework to make a poem to celebrate Valentine's Day. So I wrote this, and dreamt that it would be true. 1 year later, I met that "catlover boy" just like in my poem. Every single word in my poem came true! Amazing right? :)

boediono.

Boediono and his bizzare students.

He's a genius.
He studied at University of Western Australia, for his Bachelor of Economics; Monash University Australia, for his Master of Economics; University of Pennsylvania USA, for his Ph.D; and Universitas Gadjah Mada Yogyakarta, for his title as professor.

He's "a hawk on inflation".
He succeeded in reducing Indonesian inflation from 17% to 5%!

He's one the most influential people in Asia.
His success means alot for the economy in Asia.

He's the Koordinator Bidang Perekonomian Minister.
He helps Indonesian economy in fiscal and monetary problems.

He's the Governor of Bank Indonesia this May 2008.
He leads this central bank of our country until 2013.

And he's my lecturer :)
Never absent, never comes late, never dissapointed his unknown-student, even he have to teach every Saturday!

Pak Boediono, you're the best.

P/S: Thank you for letting me taking your photograph even you are in a hurry. But hey, like I said to you, I've done my post about you :)

temannya siminah.

Siminah and her friend.

Dia memoleskan lipstik di bibirnya sekali lagi, lalu lagi, dan lagi. Dia tersenyum.

Dress mininya yang sempit, sedikit terangkat saat ia berdiri dari meja rias. Cewek 20 tahun itu membetulkan posisi roknya, lalu menatap kaca di depannya. 'Tidak, bedakku kurang'—batin si cewek itu, dia pun kembali memoleskan bedak di wajahnya yang tirus.

Usahanya di depan meja rias untuk memukau manusia malam di diskotik. Menurutnya, pasti tidak ada orang lain yang lebih menghargainya daripada di diskotik, terutama pria. 'Bagaimana lagi? Bukankah para clubbers menyukai cewek yang berdandan berani sepertiku?'—pikirnya. Dia merasa dia akan bisa cocok bergaul di tempat itu. Selama ini dia selalu dianggap cewek kampung, cewek dari desa, cewek yang nggak gaul.

Dia ingin gaul. Ingin sekali. Sehingga saat pertama kali Siminah, temannya, mengajaknya mencoba memasuki dunia malam ini, dia menanggapinya dengan antusias. Maka disinilah sekarang dia berada, di diskotik di kawasan Kuningan, Jakarta. Dengan modal invitation yang dia dapatkan dari meja kasir sebuah toko pakaian, maka masuklah dia di diskotik itu setelah lehernya dicap untuk tanda entrace. Dia tersenyum dan sedikit berjoget seraya menghampiri teman-temannya yang berdiri di dekat speaker kanan. Dia senang sekali. Dia merasa menjadi pusat perhatian dalam diskotik itu. Apapun yang dia lakukan selalu diperhatikan. Bahkan saat dia dan teman-temannya berfoto bersama sekalipun. Semua mata memandangnya. Termasuk lelaki berkemeja putih di seberang itu. Lelaki bersama teman-teman lelaki itu terus menatap dan terkadang tertawa simpul saat memandangnya. 'Ah mereka menyukaiku.'—riangnya. Diapun berjoget seksi untuk terus mencari perhatian. Dia menyadari bahwa lelaki itu sedang membicarakan dirinya. Dia pun menyadari dan merasakan lelaki itu mendatanginya. Sampai kemudian lelaki itu berada di hadapannya dan berteriak di telinganya,
"Hai, sendirian nih?"
"Hah? Nggak sama temen-temen."
"Boleh joget bareng?"
Cewek seksi ini tertawa dalam hati. DIA SENANG SEKALI.
"Oh boleh aja," jawabnya kalem.
Merekapun berjoget bersama, sampai akhirnya lelaki itu berkata, "aku harus pulang nih. Ini nomer hpku. Simpen yah. Kalo kangen, sms aja yah?" Cewek yang hatinya sedang berdegup kencang itu mengangguk pelan. Lalu lelaki itu pergi.

Cewek berambut panjang itu menatap jam tangannya. 'Ah sudah pukul 4 pagi!'—dia tersentak kaget saat menyadari waktu. Dia menggeret teman-temannya yang sudah tak sadarkan diri untuk pulang dengannya. Walau dongkol pada teman-temannya yang merepotkannya, ia tetap tersenyum bahagia. 'Lelaki itu benar-benar menyukaiku,'—batinnya dalam hatinya yang riang.

Sampai di kost dia membersihkan semua make-up-nya, mengganti pakaiannya, sampai kemudian duduk di samping Siminah yang masih tepar di kasurnya. Dia tersenyum saat mengambil tissue bertuliskan nomor telpon lelaki tadi. Dia mulai memijat hpnya.

Aku uda kangen :)

Message Sent!

Di tempat yang sangat jauh darinya namun masih di Jakarta, lelaki itu sedang duduk-duduk bersama teman-temannya di dalam kamarnya. Kali ini dia sudah mengganti kemeja putihnya dengan kaos The Stroke. Hpnya bergetar, lalu diambilnya dari kantong kanan celana pendeknya. Dia membaca sms yang baru saja masuk. Dia tertawa kencang. Sms itu dia perlihatkan pada teman-temannya. Teman-temannya pun ikut tertawa walaupun sedikit kecut. Mereka melemparkan uang seratus ribuan kepada lelaki itu. Salah satu dari mereka berkata, "Tai lo! Kalo gue sih tetep ogah pura-pura pedekate sama cewek muka kontras berbaju Melawai itu!"
"Aahhh yang penting dapet duit Boss!" Jawab lelaki itu girang lalu membalas sms tadi dengan:

Sori,gw ga doyan sama ce body b'nilai 8,mukenye b'nilai 1/2

Message Sent!

Terinspirasi oleh blognya mas ini. Hehe. Bukannya tidak setuju dengan postingannya, namun akan menarik apabila mengambil sudut pandang dari sisi lain. Tapi tetep, cewek model beginian bikin risih!!!

pemblokiran youtube.

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Saya menulis ini memakai Bahasa Indonesia, karena takut ada anggota pemerintahan Indonesia yang tidak mengerti Bahasa Inggris. Bukan maksud menghina, tapi bukankah begitu? Youtube aja diblokir my man!

Beberapa menit yang lalu saya mendapatkan informasi bahwa beberapa situs yang memuat video film Fitna, diblokir untuk mencegah gangguan hubungan antar umat beragama dan keharmonisan peradaban pada tingkat global. Pemerintah yang baik memang memiliki keinginan yang mulia. Namun sayangnya mengambil langkah yang salah: memblokir situs Youtube. Youtube adalah situs yang menurut saya sangat bersih. Situs ini tidak sudi dan selalu menghapus segala macam video yang dianggap porno. Situs ini adalah salah satu situs yang dapat memberikan informasi-informasi penting, yang bagi kebanyakan orang kadang terlewatkan. Terakhir saya ketinggalan informasi penting mengenai suatu berita yang akhirnya dapat saya tonton berkat Youtube. Sekarang bagaimana saya mendapatkan itu semua? Tidak tau. Saya ketinggalan berita, ya sudah, bye-bye, saya tidak akan bisa menonton berita itu. Ini dia kesalahan pemerintah, memblokir suatu hal dengan mengorbankan hal lain yang sebenarnya lebih penting.

Pemerintah tidak berfikir ke depan. Dia tidak menghitung-hitung dahulu seberapa besar manfaat yang dapat diambil dan manfaat yang dibuang dari pemblokiran ini. Memang film Fitna ini film kontroversial, namun informasi lebih penting bagi kita. Kalo takut rakyatnya bertindak bodoh dalam menanggapi film ini (misal demonstrasi brutal), beri rakyat pendidikan yang layak dong. Sudah bisa diprediksi kan, bahwa orang yang melakukan demonstrasi brutal bukan dari kalangan terpelajar semisal dosen atau dokter? Mereka tidak melakukan itu karena mereka memiliki kesibukan yang lebih penting daripada sekedar di jalan berdemonstrasi secara brutal itu tadi.

Bagi saya film Fitna karya Geert Wilders itu tidak bermutu. Hanya opini seseorang yang sebenarnya nonesence. Lebih seperti anak TK yang sedang memaki temannya. Namun kenapa pemerintah malah justru meladeninya dan mengorbankan informasi bagi bangsanya? Bukankah ini malah justru akan menciptakan chaos dalam negeri ini? Apakah memang rencana pemerintah Indonesia adalah menciptakan chaos? Itu perasangka buruk saya. Perasangka baiknya, pemerintah gagap IPTEK, sehingga mereka tidak tau seberapa besar manfaat situs-situs yang sudah mereka blokir dengan sadisnya.

Sebenarnya yang kita butuhkan bukan ditutup matanya dari realita dan dunia luar. Yang kita kita butuhkan adalah pendidikan dan informasi yang maksimal untuk menanggapi realita itu secara cerdas dan bijaksana.

Update:
Apabila kalian setuju untuk menghentikan pemblokiran ini, beri dukungan kalian disini, yaitu petisi untuk menghentikan pemblokiran atas situs-situs internet di Indonesia.

fitna.

Geert Wilders.

I'm sure you guys already watch FITNA, a 2008 short film by Dutch parliamentarian Geert Wilders. This 15 minutes movie is about how worried Wilders is if Islam is getting stronger. He describe how Islam is full of sarcasm, full of killing, terorist, etc. He described it like he knows what Islam is, just because he read Al Quran.

I'm sure you guys already watch the news, how Indonesian Muslims are mad to Wilders and do such a brutal thing: burning the Netherland's flag.

If I can write a letter to anybody, I'll write it to Geert Wilders and all Muslims in this whole world.

Dear Geert Wilders,
Al Quran is not that easy to understand. We have to read it from first to last. Not just read one paragraf or two then make a conclusion. It's not that simple. Al Quran is a very sophisicated religion. It is hard but it is beautiful. No body can understand this if they doesn't know anything about Islam. What you have made is a hate. You want to make a war that the world doesn't need it.

And to all muslims,
This is not a big deal. It's just a movie. We all know that our religion is not that bad. So why should we angry about it? Just take it easy and show the world that we're not like the movie. We love peace and we respect other religion. If we go down to the street do demonstration, burn Netherland's flag, use bad words to mock Geert, and go brutal, it will make other religion really think that we are as bad as the movie, even we know we're not.

two days after.

Damn Flash!

DAMMIT!!!

Because I never use the flash on the camera, soooo... ALL MY PICS ARE FAILED TO BE PRINTED!!! DAMN! I have to try this thing (I mean the camera) on again. Bahhhhh.

Wait for the next post. But I don't know when cuz I'm in the middle of an exam now. I have to study hard first then I go get busy with this cute camera again.

See you later alligator!

lomo: the coolest camera at this very moment.

Me & Lomo.

It's LOMO, my friend!

Ya introduce the coolest camera at this very moment: fisheye 2 white lomo.
You don't have to be a fish to look at the world :P

I have try this thing on. I can't wait to show you guys the pics. The thing is, this camera is manual so we have to print the film to see the result. Well it take about 2 days to print it. So wait for my next post 2 days after this ok! :D

See you on Monday!

diwuta.

These days I got nothing to do except drawing. The only cute object in my house are my cats. So I draw one of them. Meet Diwuta, the slutty cat alive. She always act sweet infront of my friends especially boys! Bah.

The Slutty Cat.

Diwuta.

hail photoshop!

Friendster Background.
Dian Paramita is me :D


I love spending the whole day with the one and only Photoshop.

So, which one do you like the most? The background, the certificate, or both? Haha! But hey, you don't have to pick anyway :D

money.

She looks like my grandma.

I hate it when some people think they are wise if they said, "MONEY IS NOTHING. LOVE IS EVERYTHING"

Well doh. That's naive.

Money is not that disgusting to have tho. For me:

hard work = success = earn a lot of respect = earn a lot of money

So why wont we admit that money is everything? In this life, what we need is doing lots of positive things which we can get it with a hard work. To give respect for the positive things we've done is by giving money in return. You wont like it if they give you a kiss for what have you done right? Well if the person who kiss us is a goodlooking one, that's fine. But what if they look like a pig? NO WAY! I wont let my bones working hard just for kissing a pig. This will stop everybody to work hard.

Different with love. Love is irrational. Love is emotion. Love has nothing to do with logic. That's is why love is dangerous. Love looks sweet on surface but it can ruin our life just like that.

So if you ask me, "What is more important, is it money or love?"
My answer is, "100% money"
If you ever love somebody, you know why.

too much options.

Choosing.

Do you know what it feels like if you have to choose so many options? It feels bad. I'm in this situation right now. I feel lucky but uncomfortable. :(

I can't choose because I HATE CHOOSING. I think choosing is the hardest thing that I have to do in my life. I rather hide my self inside my blanket and never think of choosing.

So tell me, what should I do if those options are perfect?

what do you think?

Shocking picture.

My brother can't drive a car. So when he need to go to a salon, I'm the one who have to drive him there.

When we arrived, we both found this shocking picture. Is that our president? Yea it is. But he looks stupid and cheap. How can the most popular guy on this country cut his hair in this cheap barber shop?

Take a good look.

Lets ask that IT expert (yea right doh!) Roy Suryo, whether is it a fake picture or not. Then let's wait. Will the police arrest the barber because of this, like when they arrest my brother 3 years ago?

I don't think so. You know why? Because the barber didn't put Roy Suryo's face on that picture.

why this world is not fair?

Aileen Wuornos

I still couldn't understand if I have to say, God is fair.

There's a lucky girl name Paris Hilton, who is beautiful and rich. Her grandfather was the Hilton Hotel founder. She travels around the world everyday for fun. She has a lot of friends who willing to spend the day with her. She has a family who love her very much. She has everything that girls ever wish of. She is lucky.

But there's an unlucky girl named Aileen Wuornos. Ever heard of her? Her unlucky life story was filmed in a movie called Monster, starring Charlize Theron as Aileen.

Her parent was her grandparent because her real parent never raise her. Her grandfather physically and sexually abused her as a child and her grandmother was an abusive alcoholic. She's pregnant in the age of 14 and claimed to have had sex with multiple partners, including her own brother. She began to work as a prostitute while still in school. Even she's not ugly, but she's not a goodlooking girl. So that is why many people around her never respect her. But then she met this lesbian girl name Tyria Moore. Tyria Moore was the only one who respected her, that's why Wuornos were very in love with her, eventho Wuornos claimed she's not a lesbian before. To support herself and Moore's daily needs, she work as a prostitute. But one day, one of her client was torturing her. So she killed him and stole his money. Then she relized, by killing her client, she can get more money without having sex with them. That's why she began kliing her clients and be a serial klller. When the police found her then arrested her, Wuornos claimed she was rapped and it was a self-defense. But in the courthouse, Moore said that Wuornos never told her about she being rapped. That's why Wuornos gets a death penalty in 2001 with lethal injection. Her last words were "I'd just like to say I'm sailing with the Rock and I'll be back like Independence Day with Jesus, June 6, like the movie, big mother ship and all. I'll be back."

I cannot finish watching this movie. It's too hard for me to relize that, there was a very unlucky girl who ever lives in this planet. So should I say God is fair?

i wont forgive soeharto.

This is why people afraid of him.

Don't say that we are wealthy when he leads us. Don't say that we need him alot. Don't say that he was our hero. Don't say that we have to forgive him. Because that's annoying.

Reading news, history, and get enough knowledge it's very important for you to argue.

FINALLY I CAN DRIVE!

Now finally, I CAN DRIVE MY OWN CAR! YIPPIE! SYUBIDABIDUB!

Thanks to Pak Imam, the greatest driving instructor ever! m(_ _)m
It takes only about 3 days in practicing, then I can drive my own car! Can you believe that? Now I can drive my self to my campus, my brother's office, my favorite salon, my friend's house, anywhere. Am I good or wot? :D

So, need a ride anyone? :P

sex.

Rock on baby!

There's a guy I just met asked me, am I still a virgin or not? Well I'm still a virgin, thank you very much for asking.

Then he kept asking me about when will I lose it? When will I try making love? Who's the guy? Any plan doing it now? Did I ever want to do it? He ALSO said that making love is great. Something that made you happy, satisfied, yadda yadda yadda...

So I told him, I'm not into that. I don't want to do it now. I got much things to do right now besides thinking about who will be my first man on bed. I rather keep my virginity until I get married. Not because of the culture or for my future husband happiness, but it's for my own life that I am thinking about. Then he said, "oh you are labil. You aren't stabil."

I don't know. Am I that naive or this conversation starts really boring? If he kept telling me that sex is a paradise or whatever, then what? I'm not interested anyway. Or maybe NOT YET. Don't get me wrong, I'm not that kind of person who againts sex before marrige tho. The thing is, it is not my priority. Right now my priorities are focusing on my study, my work, and my experience for my life later. So it's annoying if someone keep pushing me, saying that I have to feel the desire of making love even I'm not into that. Because once again, that's not my priority. Much things are more urgent than that.

So please man, don't judge me like Im a little girl who doesn't know anything like you do. Because that would pissed me off.

something that i do everyday.

This is what I like having a bestfriend and a YM. Nonsense really. But it can turn up my mood easily.

Oh yeah by the way, she just joined blogspot because of me :P
Her name is Boder, lets clap!

texas and i can't drive part 2.

Firstable, I still cannot drive. Haha!

Well blame the virus that make me sick and can't do anything. I even can't attend on my final exam. Yeah yeah... Don't be surprise.

But thank God, my mom can forgives me so that she still giving me an offer to drive me anywhere. Ouwh... Thanks Mom!

Btw, because of this shitty virus, all my life in this couple of days are boring. Thanks to the technology, I can meet people from around the world even I'm lying on my bed and just do typing.

So I met this boy name Andy who lives in Houston, Texas. He said that he doesn't have any pride on USA, but he's proud of Texas. He said, Texas is perfect. Everything is cheap there. The land, the ciggarates, etc. You have to spend US$ 400,000 for a land in California, but in Texas, the land will only cost you about US$ 150,000. In other states, a pack of ciggarates are about US$8 but in Texas it will only cost you US$5. Wow! Then he said if I want to move to the United State, I should live in Texas. Hmmm... Good stuff to know eh?

But then a few minutes later, I met my old friend name Glen who lives in Floyd, Iowa. I don't know why we were talking about his cousin who lives in Denton, Texas, but then the conversation leads us talking about Texas. And what a surprise. Glen said that his cousin doesn't have any computer because somebody stole it. He said, many burglar in Texas. We have to be careful. WHAT? A few minutes ago somebody told me that Texas is perfect, but then a few minutes later somebody else told me that Texas is a state of criminals? Ah that's confusing!

I should go to bed or I can be more sick!